Where was God this morning?

This morning I woke up in a surprisingly good mood. I was rested, up early enough to enjoy my morning without rushing around (which is rare). I played with the dogs and even made myself a cup of coffee (even more rare than the first). As I made my coffee, I laughed to myself while I poured it into one of mine and Jeremy's many mustache coffee mugs, I thought to myself that I should text my best friend and say good morning. So, I sent Brooke a picture of me and the mustache mug, because she is the only other person I know of that finds them as funny as I do. 

Not even five minutes later she sent me a picture of her car, which she had wrecked on her way to work. 

Here I was in my happy little bubble, thanking God for great conversations the night before, waking up rested, having a relaxing morning, etc and at the exact same time Brooke was sliding off the road in her car, hitting a tree, being extremely scared, calling for help. Obviously, she was having the exact opposite morning that I was. Why her? Why did he let this happen to one of His children? It didn't happen because she isn't a christian, because she deserved it, or because she doesn't know how to drive. But sometimes it's so hard to see that when you're going through a struggle. It's much easier to blame God or ask him where he was when something bad happened. But the truth of the matter is that we have no idea what He did. We don't know if the wreck should have been worse and he made her little VW bug be extra strong. We don't know if she wrecked where she did because if she would have wrecked a block down the road it might have been with an even bigger tree or with a car that would have hurt her and her car worse. We don't know if He didn't keep her from wrecking because her car is bad and maybe next week it would have overheated and blown up (obviously these are all hypothetical) but nonetheless, we don't know. It's absurd to assume that we know more about what's best better for us than The Author of the Universe. The truth is, she is safe. God was there with her every step and He hated it as much as she did. 


*not finished but my laptop is about to die. I shall return to this post* :)

Happy Father's Day

Most of you already know that I'm a daddy's girl. But what you don't know is all the million reasons that make him incredible. Today I'll share a few with you. 


#1. He is always consistent. He is always there for me, always hard-working, always putting me first. (He has even had the same haircut and mustache since I was born... Like I said, he's consistent.)

 #2. He always listens. Most parents say, "No" and that is it. Not my dad. Even when the answer was no, he always listened to my side of the story. He always gave me a chance to talk, he made me feel like my opinion mattered. When I was little I used to convince him that I couldn't go to bed unless I had a teddy graham and milk, and as I got older I wanted my teddy graham ration to increase. He would patiently listen as I told him, "I need 3 because I'm three, I need 4 because I'm four." He probably thought his opinionated, fiesty little princess was going to grow up to be a lawyer. 

 #3. He always made time for me. After working a long, exhausting day he would give me a glove and a ball and spend hours trying to teach me to play softball. Not only did he teach me to play, but he was a great teacher for tons of little girls with little or no experience. I still remember how proud and cool I felt having my dad (and mom) as the coach for my team.

#4. He has given me opportunities that i'll never be able to thank him for. He payed for all of my college instead of paying for vacations, a bigger house, or better yet, retirement. He keeps working so that I don't have to. Every day, and year is a sacrifice he willingly makes to make my life easier. He is the definition of generous, selfless. 

Not only has be payed for a dream education, but he gave me my dream wedding. He has given me everything I ever wanted, and never asked for anything in return (except good grades). He spent a chunk of savings so that I could have one perfect, glorious day to remember for the rest of my life. 

 #5. He has taught me the meaning of love. The kind of love that puts others head of themselves. He has shown me what it means to be a great man and father. He and my mom have been married for 25 wonderful, challenging, hilarious years. I couldn't be more thankful for the man my father is and the hard work he has put in at work to make my mom and I the two most lucky, spoiled people (and to my mom for putting up with him while he works his butt off). haha!

I love you daddy! Happy Father's Day. You are the most dedicated, wonderful, & loving father a girl could ever ask for!

My 20 (not so secret) secrets

1. Sometimes I laugh in my sleep so hard that it wakes me up.
2. I am crazy about animals. I cry harder when animals die in movies than when people die.
3. I love planning parties.
3. I'm sarcastic and pessimistic (the exact opposite of my husband) which makes for pretty amusing conversations and fights.
4. I love the smell of coffee, but I don't drink it unless it's a study emergency.
5. I have my mother's thoughtfulness, but also her quick temper.
6. I'm awful at keeping secrets that have to do with gifts.
7. I love to sing and have secretly always wanted to do it in front of people, though I never in a million years would.
8. If I'm up past 1AM I get grumpy and throw a mini-fit (in my head or to jeremy)
9. I have never spent more than $40 on a pair of shoes (I have one pair of tennis shoes that cost more, but Jeremy bought them for me).
10. I own over 100 dresses and only 15 tops and I've managed to break the hanging bar in our house that's less than a year old.
11. I have about 10 obnoxious, random nicknames a piece for our dogs Riley and Sophie.
12. I love sushi. It's the only thing "adventurous" I eat.
13. I want to see the world, but I'm afraid of doing it because i'm afraid of the unknown.
14. I'm deathly afraid of needles.
15. All my closest friends are people I've known for a long time. There's something incredibly special about the people that love you and grow with you throughout all the changing phases of your life.
16. I'm a control freak.
17. I have known I was called to adopt a child since I was about 19 years old. After working with several adopted children and special needs children,  I can't imagine not adopting. It scares me to death, but I am looking forward to meeting him/her one day.
18. I like sparkling wine.
19. I got my first ticket this year for being on my cell phone in a school zone. WOMP WOMP
20. Jeremy is my dream guy. He's everything I've ever dreamed up and so much more. He makes me better, wiser, stronger, happier, and more alive every day. He has taught me more about God than years and years of going to church.